It's only time that I come around to writing a blog for my site, Master has been encouraging me to add writings to my site, and whereas I don't seem to be able to finish a story, I can share my thoughts on a blog.
Obviously, I am an SSBBW. That stands for Super-Sized, Big, Beautiful Woman. Or, Super-Sexy if you prefer. I have been heavy all my life, and since becoming disabled due to breathing problems, I have added a great amount of weight. For all you feeders, don't get excited. I don't intend to intentionally gain any more weight, and of course the medical community strongly advises against it, and well, I have begun to feel that enough is enough, and that it is time to do something about my size. I am 5'10" tall, and weighed in at 550 pounds, the last time I checked.
I also have BDSM interests which is great for me, but makes people I've encountered in that scene, generally uncomfortable. There often are skimpy or no clothes involved in the gatherings of BDSM groups, and I went right along with the group, but was told in private that I intimidated people because of my size. At the same time, people drank from the information and education I could share, and accepted that the information was good.
This was all before I met the Master who owns me now. Master Arktos is an FA (Fat Admirer) and we became fast friends before ever realizing that the other was into BDSM, and that he is Dominant, and I choose the submissive role. He accepts the fact I had a slave of my own at one time, but that at this stage in my life, I need to pursue that slave within myself. Master is kind to allow me a wide latitude under his control yet there is no question as to who is in charge.
From Master Arktos' urging, two years ago, I began to read the books of John Norman, the "Gor" series. I'd heard of Gor from the time I was little because my father read everything he could get his hands on, and the Gor books were among the thousands that he went through. My raids on his revolving library never included any of the books, and I wonder where my mind would be today if I had. Shortly after I started reading the books, at Master's direction, I began to explore IRC (Internet Relay Chat) and found a home in a chat room, an "inn" of Goreans who became valuable to my education.
I am a "kajira" which is the term for "slave" in Gorean. I am Master Arktos' property, his to command, and his to use, were he not long distance. The miles between us prevent the physical sharing, but the mindset is there, and the spirit is what really counts. It would be wonderful to be under his wise hands, and to be used by him directly, but it is not meant to be until the day he can visit. Until then, I love and adore my Master, and strive to make him happy.
So, with a brief (too late!) description of who I am and where I am coming from, I set this off, inaugerating the blog for goldenslave. I hope there is something you can gain from this site, and that it doesn't prove to be a waste of time.
